This year I come to my mat with a healing body from having my beautiful son in October.
I was surrounded by this loving yoga community and so very grateful for all the goodness received.
I learned many lessons and have found in the end when the world spins out of control, I can still slow my anxiety and mind with this beautiful breath, movement, and connection to above.
I have loved my past challenges to move through certain advanced asanas, gain knowledge of therapies and meditation, but mostly I cherish the freedom I have on my mat to move, breath, and connect with something other than myself.
The practice is the same, we may wrap it up in different packages and alignment cues or breaths to hold and call it one format or another, but in the end it is You, your mat, and breath. Without the breath, it is not Yoga.
This past year I was taken off practice and found myself moving from an intense 2-hour practice to one in my head. I breathed, counted, and closed my eyes to watch the movement in my mind. Interestingly, I still found connection.
At first this was very hard as I love to move and push my body past boundaries. For the first time, I simply could not. Instead, I found the consistency of breath, movement, and connection to something greater in my mind.
It brought me peace and as my body changed to support my son, and the terror of possibly losing my him grew into my daily reality.
As the days got closer to my son being born and the doctors prepared us with him having less than a 50% survival rate, my daily connection slowed even more to simply inhales and exhales with matching speed. I would block everything else out and only believe God’s good will for my son. I would only see positive bright energy to prepare me. At times breathing was the only place I had faith.
Then, finally when everything spun out of control and I went into an emergency delivery, I knew those inhales and exhales, prayers, digging deep to connect was all I had to slow my anxiety.
I am so grateful to God to say miraculously my child was born healthy. The techniques within the practice gave me something tangible so I could connect with above and block everything else out. It provided a foundation when I felt alone or afraid. It is my safety place.
As I start 2018, I don’t seek the advanced asanas, I seek that connection and consistency to come to my mat stripped down and naked to only my raw breath. I feel this ability to show ourselves, no matter what may appear on the mat is the courage and faith to believe that there is something greater who is watching and doesn’t judge us to be this way or that. We can just be. We can simply move and breath daily
Just as healthy food choices develop the body in a healthy way, so does our daily routines and belief of what we are doing.
Counting calories or getting to a certain weight can drive anyone insane. The positive thoughts and daily routine to seek out movement and connect to something greater, slows anxiety, and brings great peace
In 2018, I choose daily to breath and move in faith, with gratitude, and in joy so that I can just be.
I invite you to come to your mat and try this healing and peaceful practice of yoga.
At Ignite Yoga, we believe that yoga is for everyone–For people of all ages and all walks of life.